Well its my last weekend in new york and i'm finally going to start college after taking a year off but hey at least i got something to do now. I'm actually really scared about alot of things because part of me wants to this really bad because i'm going to be back with my friends but i can't help to feel like its going to blow up in my face as most of my plans and ideas do, but i gotta try to be positive its just that once in my life i wanna feel like things can go in the way I imagine it.....URGH!
I really got lots to say to just no heart or sanity to speak about it now i just wanna fade to darkness and come out when everything is all in place but its not time for that its time to become what i've always wanted to be more then anything in this world and that is happy